Pshychiatric medication for mental illness did more damage to me than MJ ever did. Maybe you're experiencing long term effects from that? When I was "self medicating" with MJ, I wasn't too bad. 2 years of psych meds later, I tremble, twitch, and my speech is slurred. My coordination is terrible, and I drop shit all the time. I'm 31 years old, and I drink out of sippy cups because otherwise I spill on myself. Since I stopped taking my meds, it's slowly getting better. Food for thought...