Quote Originally Posted by moeburn
I'm not sure when it started, maybe a week ago, it definately happened yesterday. I just can't enjoy anything anymore. Something else inside of me is dictating how happy I am.

Last night it got so bad I was convinced my life was over and I was ready to die. The moment I woke up this morning I thought "hey that was pretty stupid of me last night", and then 5 minutes later it started again. That lasted until noon when, for literally like 30 seconds, I came out of it. I was free of the pain and I was happy and I felt like I could do everything again and I had to go get started on all the things that I know are fun, but then 30 seconds later I died again.

Whatever this is, although I occasionally have brief spasms of happiness, this is just getting worse and worse every day and I dont know what to do and I want to have control again. I have no reason to be depressed. My life rocks. Schools great, family is great, and yet I can't be happy.

goddamn this sucks...
Not to burst your bubble or make you worry more but for the past eight years I have suffered severe depression on and off way more on than off.
Due to some circumstances with my current job and a short term jail sentence coming to me for a traffic charge I have woken up for the past two months with such a very deep feeling of dread that it is scary at times. Some mornings my first thought of the day is suicide. I have attempted suicide by sleeping pills and I have put a fully loaded revolver to my left temple but did not have the courage to pull the trigger. I have carved names of my first son and girlfreind (now wife) into my left and right arms.
Yeah I'm a pretty severe nut case some of you are thinking right now but I don't feel that to be true. I have never talked to a proffesional about my problems before. But I will never take my own life because of my children and I know I'll get better once my troubles calm down as I have alot going on right now. I also would not take my own life after seeing this http://www.ogrish.com/archives/man_c...c_20_2004.html But all in all I really feel for you and I hope things get better. I really do. Good luck to you and don't forget what you just saw and read.

P.S If you need to talk to someone about anything e-mail me at [email protected]

Your Freind,
Zero Revolt
Zero Revolt Reviewed by Zero Revolt on . so very, very depressed... need help... I'm not sure when it started, maybe a week ago, it definately happened yesterday. I just can't enjoy anything anymore. Something else inside of me is dictating how happy I am. Last night it got so bad I was convinced my life was over and I was ready to die. The moment I woke up this morning I thought "hey that was pretty stupid of me last night", and then 5 minutes later it started again. That lasted until noon when, for literally like 30 seconds, I came out of it. I was free of the Rating: 5