OK I thought about it some more. My symptoms sound like bipolar. I haven't felt this bad since when I was 9 or 10 years old. Back then I could just never sleep, I was always crying, I was always afraid of dying, etc.

So maybe I had bipolar, and I had just gotten over it. Me smoking weed probably reactivated it, since weed is well known to bring out depression hidden in people. And the fact that I just ran out probably didnt help.

Its also depressing that, if I dont seek help, I might have to live like this forever, but if I do seek help, they might give me antidepressants that change who I am and turn me into a vegetable, I dont want that.

I'm hoping this will all go away in a few days, since thats usually when the weed withdrawl goes away (fuck you assholes that told me there are no withdrawl symptoms).

thanks everyone