I'm not sure when it started, maybe a week ago, it definately happened yesterday. I just can't enjoy anything anymore. Something else inside of me is dictating how happy I am.

Last night it got so bad I was convinced my life was over and I was ready to die. The moment I woke up this morning I thought "hey that was pretty stupid of me last night", and then 5 minutes later it started again. That lasted until noon when, for literally like 30 seconds, I came out of it. I was free of the pain and I was happy and I felt like I could do everything again and I had to go get started on all the things that I know are fun, but then 30 seconds later I died again.

Whatever this is, although I occasionally have brief spasms of happiness, this is just getting worse and worse every day and I dont know what to do and I want to have control again. I have no reason to be depressed. My life rocks. Schools great, family is great, and yet I can't be happy.

goddamn this sucks...
moeburn Reviewed by moeburn on . so very, very depressed... need help... I'm not sure when it started, maybe a week ago, it definately happened yesterday. I just can't enjoy anything anymore. Something else inside of me is dictating how happy I am. Last night it got so bad I was convinced my life was over and I was ready to die. The moment I woke up this morning I thought "hey that was pretty stupid of me last night", and then 5 minutes later it started again. That lasted until noon when, for literally like 30 seconds, I came out of it. I was free of the Rating: 5