No phone, no internet, no plants.....

Sounds like someone having a mid life crisis.

As for the anxiety attacks, fuck, just take another xanax.

Hello new life?

Everyday is a new life bro.....you dont need to throw out the kitchen sink to embrace it.

I too am an A type...

So I understand how you feel, completely.....

But life ebbs and flows and the trick is to not allow it to control you, but rather, your perception of it.

But you cannot leave. 700 is NOT the lucky number... Its 777.

So seems to me you got another 77 posts to run.

BTW....when you get around to growing agian, you current lights will be obsolete...

Why not donate them to HARD ON's fund?