well it seems that i may have to complete 700 posts here and then leave quietly...in the dark...lol

well, i am the type of person who likes excess a lot, take my word for it.....i would never grow 1-2 plants or Lowryder.....i want plenty of bud, everyone who grows i know that can feel me...

it's not the first grow that i decide not to grow any further, i had another two so-called ''failures'' like that one in the past...i never threw the plants away with the fear that i would get caught....

this time is different though....i know i can grow cannabis, everyone can...i never said that i will never grow again....it's just that this point of my life is very crucial and important and after weighting the pluses and minuses and judging the whole situation from a wiser point of view, i have decided not to grow again before i graduate from the university...

yeah, i am still a student at the uni....getting the highest possible degree of education....it's just that i feel that my babies should be my books and not my plants, any type of plants.....

i will do great in my exams that follow up, as great as i did with the plants and even better.....so, i guess now you can understand why i have decided to give up growing cannabis...i am returning back to my priorities as when i finish i'll be earning enough money to set up a whole greenhouse equipped with the sophisticated equipment needed to grow fat enormous buds....but then again what would be the point of doing that?

i really have felt that i got obsessed with the cultivation of cannabis, days were passing one after the other and i would think of nothing else than my plants, i mean for god's sake i wasn't thinking of myself anymore....

i started feeling guilty when i saw this ''you're not addicted to cannabis until you start growing it'' which is rather true, don't you think?

more or less i have decided to rip apart the problem from the root.....no more growing until i finish my studies.....i have to have a peaceful mind, with no anxieties of any kind...in the fireplace there are 23 plants, drying waiting to be burned....when i burn them i'll make sure that every window is closed, i'll close even the chimney, time to get really stoned, hehehehe, it will be funny i think....

i needed some time to think what is important in my life.....i wanted to be alone and so i was left alone.....i broke up with my girlfriend and i feel good.....i disconnected the phone in my house and soon i will have no internet as well.....all these changes plus the stopping of growing cannabis have made me a different person...

i feel good, different, liberated from my old self, sure i still smoke cannabis but now it feels different, i do not care if the cops come into my house anymore looking for cannabis...i don't give a shit to be honest.....i have the lamps i have the equipment i have many many seeds....it is legal to own every one of them....it is illegal to grow it though.....

anyways, that's post 698......i am really done with the cultivation of cannabis...i had the idea of trying to grow into a closet or something but nahhhhhhh that's not for me.....i am the man of plenty as i foretold and i like doing things perfect.....so by the time i can not achieve perfectness because other variables affect my success then i should stop it and do something else.....i could still cultivate mushrooms which by the way are legal to grow



heheheheh.......take care.....

NGOS