nice story and thanks for sharing it with us man......because this is such a close community, i will tell you all i have panic attacks (anxiety), depression (never cut myself, dont have the strenght to) and have ALWAYS for some reason been scared of fighting........its like a emotional illness for me. so ya never know i may consider trying something like that, but ill think about it, i do need 2 clense my life through again like re-birth but i dunno........i kno it isnt nice to have all these things locked inside you so i guess the best way is to get them out in the open.

peace.