Man, I feel your pain, and can really relate to what you are saying.

Iā??ve been smoking since I was about 15, but not really regularly since about a year ago. I remember my first time; I smoked under a bridge with a bunch of my friends. It was funny because it seemed to take a long time to take effect. Not knowing what to expect, I kept telling my friend ā??I donā??t feel anything yetā? and he just said that everyone says that their first time. It hit me really gradually, but before I knew it I was laughing and having an awesome time. I remember that it was a long walk home, and I usually HATE walking long distances, but it felt like I could have walked forever. Other times I got so stoned off like one hit that it was almost scary, like Iā??d worry constantly that I was looking like an idiot due to my being so stoned. I also remember trying to drive back when I was still smoking off and on. It was pretty crazy. Iā??d be all paranoid and like seeing shit in the street that wasnā??t really there (not like seeing shit but like there would be a glare and Iā??d react like I thought it was an animal in the road and shit). I also remember that whenever I smoked I used to get the munchies soooo fucking bad that being so hungry just about ruined the experience ā?? and of course eating something seems to get me sober quickly, so it sucked.

It was pretty cool once I started buying my own shit. Iā??d just buy small sacks at first, but like even just taking a resin hit on my pipe was enough to get me high. Still, I was making like 3 runs to the kitchen at night to get food even though I knew I wasnā??t really hungry. I also remember that each time I smoked it would seem like I was the highest Iā??d ever been.

It was a slow transition, but after a while I started to not get as high anymore. While I didnā??t get as high anymore, it also felt kinda like I was a little bit high all the time. Even if I stopped smoking Iā??d still feel a little high for like a whole day, and not really fully back to ā??normalā? for several days. I wouldnā??t feel really high, but just a tiny bit different. I also noticed that a lot of the shitty side effects like getting the munchies all the time started to go away. Iā??d chow down my meals with the quickness but I wouldnā??t get hungry every time I smoked anymore. I also noticed that it seemed like Iā??d feel the effects a lot faster. Iā??d take a hit, hold it in, and it was an almost instant feeling in my lungs and in my head of like a slight tingling. So while I wasnā??t getting totally owned every time I smoked anymore, it became something a lot more manageable. I could drive without any problems, I could talk to people without worrying that I was acting like an idiot, my eyes stopped getting red unless I really smoked a TON, and overall it just kinda changed from something of a roller-coaster ride to something much more mellow yet still very enjoyable.

Iā??d defiantly say that smoking first thing in the morning is the best. Your brain is like ā??freshā? when you wake up and that first hit is pure bliss. It starts the day off on the right foot. Other than that, I noticed that Iā??d get a lot higher after I exercised. Run a mile or more on a treadmill then wait an hour or so and smoke a fat bowl. But for me at least, trying to regulate it is a bitch. If I got in the mood to smoke, and I knew I had some, itā??s really hard for me to not smoke it. Also, every time I smoke a lot then stop, I get some annoying little withdrawal effects. Nothing major but it would be harder to go to sleep and it seemed like I was in a lot more of a bitchy mood.

But meh, I still get knocked on my ass if I take a fat hit after being out for a week or more. I also notice that a lot of the side effects like the munchies come back that first time also. Honestly, I think Iā??d rather just keep smoking with my tolerance built up. Like I said before itā??s no roller coaster ride, but overall Iā??d say I like life a lot better when Iā??m high all the time. I donā??t know that I could smoke daily if I was getting totally stoned every time. Also it is kinda nice to have more control over yourself while your nub friends all get totally fucked because they have no tolerance. And finally, if I smoke an average amount on a regular basis, but for whatever reason feel the need to get totally stoned, I can always just do a quick binge like a few huge bong rips and it does the desired effect quite nicely.