lol i have the same problem.....i'll load up bowls without even knowing i'm doing it....i love the taste of it, i love the smell of it, i love the effects of it...it's just so goddamned hard to resist sometimes....dont' take me as a "addict" or anything cuz i wouldn't go stealing or selling shit that has any value to me or do unspeakable things just to get my hands on it....and i practicly have no problem waiting for it to find it's way to me..but when i have it, i just can't stop myself.