Yea dont use cannabis to escape life use it to embrace it!
Life is to short to be all hung up on personal misery,most people that look for people to blame for thier "traits" or are not taking responsibility for them selfs.
Aint no one inside your head but you.I say this cause yes I have been there.Dont let choose the life YOU will live.
Try to be a stronger person for yourself if cannabis interfers with that than put it down til you are ready!