have you looked into pagan? I'm 16, and im just really confused about a lot of things right now. the human race really bothers me. I just wish it weren't so complicated, and people weren't so ignorant. I wish people could just think for themselves instead of letting a book (bible) tell them what to do. If you think about it, it seems kind of lame, maybe thousands of years ago, someone was smoking weed, wrote the bible and now millions maybe billions of people are worshipping it. When its all said and done, religion was just a way to control the masses, control the people. get them to do what you want them to do. And i think it was certainly affective. I like to lean towards the ideals of rastafarion, their lifestyle seems very simple, but from what i hear, they do not except caucasion people, you have to be black, that sort of bothers me,