Hey people I need some serious advice

[unmeg]

Killa,i dont know if I would say snorting better for you.I know its was easier for me to do a bump and be happy.When I smoked it I just wanted to smoke more,Good Luck

[NowhereMan]

Alright so I've had 2 extremely bad experiences with my high this week. Both times were mixing highs and I honestly thought I was dryin the first time. If you dont want to read it all i understand but your help is appreciated sorry its long, but its all relivant.

Heres the background on me. I have been smoking pot steadily for about 5 years, 3 years before that I started but was off and on. I have been using meth for almost 6 years but some off and on's when i got caught (few months here few months there). I've mixed them a hand-ful of times before, always found they kinda cancel each other out for me, I used meth to bring me down from a crazy high a few times to keep out of trouble.

Ive been fighting meth for awhile, im easing off it slowly. I only free-base it, i dont do needles or lines. And i hold myself back to only using meth AFTER school and on weekends. So my routine is as follows; I get out of school and do w/e business i need to and go home, then i tweak a bit - maybe a dozen nice clouds. Do my homework while im on my comp chattin with you guys and what not. Then when i start to feel sleep coming on i smoke a little bud (not usually more than 3-4 medium bong hits)

Now that you know my short history heres my problem.
I did my little routine just as described 5 out of the last 9 days, one bowl of shizzy and one bowl of herb and bed. Last thursday I was layin down and i started to feel a mad sensation all over, my hands were cold and i was sweating, i felt side to side motion really strongly, like i was being tossed around it was weird, then my heart started beating really slowly but very powerfully, like i could honestly feel every pulse in my head. The exact same thing happend last night under the same circumstances (except i was watching a diff tv show...lol not that this matters)

The first time I felt like I was going to die but the 2nd time wasnt that bad. I think i ruled out overdose because ive used decreasing amounts for awhile. Anyone recognize these as signs of something? I dunno what was going on but until i find out i gotta stop that combo =\ sorry to make u read so much, i think its serious or else i wouldnt waste your time.

you know you must get off that shit,look at it this way if you dont you know what your future holds,
i for one will wish you luck and tell ya tweekers burn out like lightbulbs.
the brighter they are on high,
the dimmer they are on low,
think about that please.
peace

[FunkyMonkey]

Napolitana mentioned something I failed to, I commend you for having the sight to try to quit. I think not doing it at school and work is a great step and shows the wilpower you do have inside you.
But you just made a comment that shows the meth still runs the show unless you are willing to take it head on now. You said you are hoping to have it kicked by next year or so and that is just giving yourself permission to keep doing it now. As long as you decide to stop any other day than today, like months in the future instead of now...you are allowing yourself to keep up the cycle, making excuses for yourself and opening the door for more moments ( or worse ) like the one that brought you here asking for some help.
If you want to stop, you have the tools so use them. Dont rationalize another high man. If YOU want to quit then do it. Kick that willpower into high gear and make a change for your future.
Your education wont mean shit if you're a meth head on a downward spiral.

Cheers for your efforts.

[w4terb0ng]

it's good that you want to stop the meth...just follow through and get away for good.
i used to smoke that shit.. and snort it occasionally. i got my hands on some bad shit once, and smoked it all up throughout the night. i got to the last little bit (a nice sized line) and decided to snort it. BIG MISTAKE. i ended up on the floor, in the fetal position holding the back of my neck, rocking back and forth. i had a pain, in the area where your spinal cord and brain connect, that totally overwhelmed me. it felt as if someone had plunged a knife into the back of my neck, and was twisting the blade around. it was fucking scary shit. i seriously thought i would either die right there, and nobody would find me until morning or the next afternoon..... OR i was going to have some kind of critical brain damage. i got sick and started vomiting out my window. the vomit soon turned to blood. i started wigging out and called my buddy down the street and told him what was happening. he came down and stayed up with me to make sure i didn't die. DIRTY DIRTY DIRTY SHIT. that's all that meth is. i met a guy once that smoked meth for a long ass time and had a tube hanging out of his chest that he drained his lungs with DAILY. he died soon after i had met him. there are zero benefits from meth. it would be alot quicker to just put a gun to your head and pull the trigger.

to sum it all up as easy as possible... meth and cocaine made me everything i NEVER wanted to be. and that scared the shit out of me. don't ever think you can "control" shit like that. stop now before it's too late to do anything about it. at least you've seen what it can lead to and where it will take you... and you want to quit. just keep your head on, and focus. good luck man, if things are as bad as they sound, then you'll need it. peace.

[w4terb0ng]

holy shit, that was long... i didn't realize it. sorry guys.

[kobeite]

That is really scary. Killa, you should learn from this guy. Look I don't mean to be a bitch, but trying to stop just ain't good enough. You'll be trying and trying and before know it, it'll kill ya. Just bite the bullet and do it. I thought of something, can you get maybe 2 really good friends to come to your apt or house and stay with you for two weeks straight to keep you off that shit? You may go through withdrawal but at least you'll have your buddies to stop you from taking the drug. Stop school stop everything for about two weeks and get clean. Get two really strong and supportive friends who will virtually put you under house arrest and help you to get clean. Drastic circumstances call for drastic measures my friend.

[kobeite]

I also wanted to say one more thing to you Killa. You are 19 years. 19 fucking years old! You are SO young and you got your whole future ahead of you. The only thing I regret in my life is what I studied in university - advertising. It is not a high-paying job, but I feel if I studied something else... like finance or whatever, I could be making bank in a very specialized field. College gives you incredible opportunities and really paves the way for possiby a very bright future. Don't throw it away, I can't stress to you enough how important it is. You are fucking with your future by staying on meth in a big way, especially now.

[BlueCat]

LMAO@mellow mood....

What a great thread.....some wonderful advice here...the Cannabis boards have the coolest people....

[dooman]

a close friend of mine quit meth cold cold turkey after donig it a year....a week in detox did it.......but nows he shoots up crack cocaine

[unmeg]

a close friend of mine quit meth cold cold turkey after donig it a year....a week in detox did it.......but nows he shoots up crack cocaine

Please explain how he "shoot's crak" I thought crak was freebase form?
WTF do I know I have'nt done coke in over a decade.