That's pretty much exactly how I am, herbalmedicine. I smoked hash/weed for two years. Then, one day during a hard time in my life, I bought some weed from a new source. I had a horrible time, and I put that down to the weed. Lousy weed, I thought. I didn't smoke for a while, and then bought some hash. I had a lousy time again, I felt horribly anxious and depressed. Before I knew it, every time I got stoned I felt that way.

It's been like that for a year and a half now.

On the plus side, I can tell you that it does get better, or at least it has for me. Eventually the anxiety reduced when on my own, though I was still self critical. The way it is for me now, when I'm on my own I feel pretty good getting stoned, with no negative feelings most of the time. I'm still a little crap to be around when I'm stoned though, as I get social anxiety when I toke. Occasionally when I smoke with people I feel just like I did back in the old days - I laugh at everything and act goofy.

The way I see it, my highs got bad cause I was in a bad condition psychologically, and now that my life has gotten miles better my highs have started to improve too. So if you're having a hard time with your life lately then I'd suggest giving up the weed and doing something to sort out your life/state of mind, and then eventually you can get back to having a fantastic time toking.

One thing to add - alcohol can help to loosen you up when smoking socially and make things easier, but that may not be your style. Good luck with it anyway. I'm sure you'll get your highs back eventually.





















BAM!!