Am I straaaange?

[marquis]

That's pretty much exactly how I am, herbalmedicine. I smoked hash/weed for two years. Then, one day during a hard time in my life, I bought some weed from a new source. I had a horrible time, and I put that down to the weed. Lousy weed, I thought. I didn't smoke for a while, and then bought some hash. I had a lousy time again, I felt horribly anxious and depressed. Before I knew it, every time I got stoned I felt that way.

It's been like that for a year and a half now.

On the plus side, I can tell you that it does get better, or at least it has for me. Eventually the anxiety reduced when on my own, though I was still self critical. The way it is for me now, when I'm on my own I feel pretty good getting stoned, with no negative feelings most of the time. I'm still a little crap to be around when I'm stoned though, as I get social anxiety when I toke. Occasionally when I smoke with people I feel just like I did back in the old days - I laugh at everything and act goofy.

The way I see it, my highs got bad cause I was in a bad condition psychologically, and now that my life has gotten miles better my highs have started to improve too. So if you're having a hard time with your life lately then I'd suggest giving up the weed and doing something to sort out your life/state of mind, and then eventually you can get back to having a fantastic time toking.

One thing to add - alcohol can help to loosen you up when smoking socially and make things easier, but that may not be your style. Good luck with it anyway. I'm sure you'll get your highs back eventually.





















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marquis Reviewed by marquis on 06-01-2004. Am I straaaange? Alright people, im into smoking and growing alot myselfe. I used to smoke every day for about a year, and totally loved it. Now, when I smoke I get deeply deeply contemplative, think about "my flaws" what I should be doing better, Im very unsociable and find it difficult to have a laugh, although when im sober I would say im a pretty fun person to be around..... I used to talk crazy but cool discussions with my friends about all sorts of stuff and we'd just flow and love it. Now 2 years on, Rating: 5

[nancyrenee]

Well I know my boyfriend says he used to be a big pothead. Then all of a sudden one day it started making him really paranoid. So he had to stop. So I guess as your body chemistry changes maybe the effects of marijuana on your body can change as well. Maybe it can be compared to allergies. One day you wake up and mow the lawn which is something you have done once a week for the past 15 years. But this one particular day your eyes swell, your nose runs, and you can't handle it. For the rest of your life you will now have to take meds when mowing the lawn. Maybe it's the same difference. Oh by the way I'm a depressive person. I've been depressed for about three years now. Doctors don't help. Even antidepressants don't help. But weed makes me happy. It makes me a positive person. So even though it's a depressive for my mind and my depression it's not.

[herbalmedicine]

tnx guys

marqais your very right about the better mindset and happy in life, the better getting high is...... oh well i need to change,

thanks for all the replys to me

[danimal]

holly shit dude... that used to happen to me all the time... i used to smoke every day for about a year and a hlaf and then it started to suck. I would usually be bale to get into conversations and shit. But then i just sat there and t hought i couldnt laugh or have a good time and i didnt know why.. it was hard for me to actually talk and when i did i thought i was saying the stupedist shit. Im on probation now and ihavent smoked untill the other night for 4 months.. i smoked and its still the same.. i think that i cannot get high anymore.. its like when i smoked by myslef i was fine i just did whatever but around people it was a different story..fucked up huh

[danimal]

well said marquis!!!

[danimal]

my advice to you herbal./..take a break bro... take a break... it will help i promise...start drinking more.. drinking is way more fun anyway