Okay, well, I just got back from Florida and decided to bump this mostly because of nerves. I was down there for over a week and my family was/is pissed at me because the entire time I was, "a stick in the mud." I was really pissy and quiet instead of lighthearted and talkative.

The reason being is because I just couldn't stop thinking about court. I'm so afraid of going to juvy. I sorta smoked last night. It was shitty, SHITTY weed that looked like leaves that were really dry and brittle. There were no hairs, and they had found it in their closet after losing it for 2 years. She said when they found it, it had mold on it even. But, we smoked about 4 bowls and a joint of it. It was worse than schwag. I can't tell if I got stoned, because I was so drunk. But, I was extremely fucked up either way.

I've called my proby officer twice now and both times she's said that it's basically up to the judge's discretion. Whether he is in a good mood or not, and how good my excuse is. I talked to some friends and as soon as I mentioned the fact that I failed my drug test, they said, "Juvy." almost at the same time.

I have been almost on the verge of tears because of this. I mean, some people might say its' not that big of a deal, but you really don't know me. lol I seriously am not one that could make it in juvy. I'd end of killing myself just because. I mean, sure I'd probably get used to it after a while, but I heard that the first week or two is the hardest. I did hear that the kids are really cool in there, they won't fuck with you or be a dick. THey'll ask you what you're in for, and it's basically like normal kids, who are in juvy. It's just being away from my friends, and my home for so long. Being without you guys and gals is also another twinge of pain.

Anyway, here's almost word for word what I want to say to the judge, and I was wondering if you guys think its good or not. The last time I saw this judge, he was very courteous, he almost bordered on nice. He didn't have this attitude that I was shit, just some kid, so I'm hoping he is the same way, and that he will opt for an extended probation and/or community service instead of juvy for 1-3 months.

Judge: Do you have anything to say right now?
Me: Your Honor, I will admit that after the incident I didn't wholly quit. I am human, I made a mistake. The day before I was tested for probation, I was around it. I didn't expect to be, I didn't think that it was going to be anywhere near me. I didn't want to put myself into a situation where I might faulter. I didn't smoke, though. I'm willing to take a drug test right now to prove that I haven't been smoking.


I talked to a friend's mom last night who works at the court house and she said that Sure-Gel (Certo) works, but that you have to be careful. It makes your piss white, and if you use creatine pills you have to make sure its not too high. She did that with her son, and they said that his creatine levels were too high. Does anyone know what normal creatine levels are??

THANKS FOR ANY HELP, GUYS!!