hmmm well iv been on anti-depressants for a few years now...ill tell u my story it userly makes people feel better bout there own lives lol


ok so last year was my last year in high school, and i hated school wid a passion! i was bullied and picked on even by the teachers, i had hardly any friends except for older guys who were useing me (i wisend up to them tho) and i think i had like mabey 3 actual girl friends...i was hell suicidle, i couldnt keep up wid the school work, i was doin drugs and sleeping around i was hated and since i lived in a small town everyone new me..and how i was...but they only new the bad stuff...then one day my b/f dumped me for one of my so called friends...they had been cheating on me...then that night i hackd into his email and read all the emails they had sent to each other laughing at me and stuff...then i went to the cubourd and took evertything in there (my dad works at a hospitle so there was ALOT of pills) when they hit me..it was mad...like bugs were ripping out of my skin! i coiuldnt walk straight and i just layd down in my bed to die...but i started retching and my dad found me...so i was taken to hospitle and had my tummy pumped and was put on 3 diff drips...of course this made everything at school worse...i was now an attention seeking dumb whore...(yah) then a few weeks later my brother died...that fucked me up so bad...i went to a sike ward for teenagers and ended up getting kicked put because i had supposidly tried to get some other people in there to tp them selves?! its true i had stolen a sharpener from the cubboard but i didnt tell her to use it... so yeh evrtything still went really bad from ther.e..i hated my parents they were embarrassed by me ect...yeh life sucked big time...i slit my wrists all the time, i ran out of tears...and to this day i still find it hard to cry...oh and to top things off both my cats had died who i had grown up wid all my life...so i ended up quitting high school and had a 6 month long brake...and it was the best thing i ever did.,..i got a job, now im goinbg to tafe, sure my life is still sad and i dont hav many friends but heaps more tnan b4!, iv stopped sleeping around and i have basically stopped caring what people think of me...iv heard every insult known to man...(all directed at me...) hell thats the short version! there is so much thats hasppend to me over the last year and a half.,..and im so much more wiser now...iv been threw so much.... oh and for giigles sumone wrote a "why lahna should be hated" boook... he wrote like 200 pages and got everyone to write in it 2... so yeh.... this world is ful of fucking imature idiots... grrr now im all fired up lol

well anyway...i dunno if this will even cum threw coz its hell long

ANYWAY advice for you lilsmokie ===== take up smoking just ciggies... that'll help wid the stress...dont drink too much and once u find a job (and you will) u can smoke weed again..oh and get in touch with your spiritual side...i did...im wiccan now..and i love it...peace out. sorry bout the longness...