well in all due respect dont hold in feelings. It seriously fucks up your life, even if the most level headed person holds back emotions they are gonna end up snapping BAD if they hold it in too long or just hold too much in. Talk to ya friends about it, if they are offended, talk down to you, mistreat you, or judge you badly because of it then they arnt true friends. Holding back feelings will fuck you up eventually so just let out, if your friends dont like you or what you do then fuck em they aint worth it

Getting a job here is really REALLY hard (unless ofcourse your a wetback who will work for a banana a day paycheck) thats why i want to be a nurse, its a skill that is needed everywhere, i want to travel a lot when i get my life on its feet, so if im a nurse basically anywhere i go i will be needed, that and the paychecks are quite...pleasing