As a Buddhist, all i can say is let go of material and physical stimulous as a dependence on happiness. happiness is from within. it's not in the American dream, the fancy new cloths, your bran new xbox and games, in brainwashing, propoganda hype, or any of that nonsense. live pure, let go of hatred, see reality for what it is. As the Buddha said, and I agree with, evil is the product of ignorance, greed, and ego.

btw, do you by chance feel like sharing what's eating at you?