Thanks penguin for telling me all about your story. I feel a little bit better. I mean I see where your coming from.I dropped out of school when I was 16,and I kind of lost all of my friends when I did that, Except for one. We stayed friends forever because we were both stoners, well recently she stopped talking to me for reasons im not sure of yet, but we don't talk.I got used to the whole loner thing,and I hated people. Then I met my ex boyfriend,and we hung out a lot! I hung with his friends, got in his group, loved every minute of it. Then we broke up,and I moved away from there, and now i'm like back to the way things used to be.Lonely, except with a child once more. I don't like it, because I feel like the only conversation I have is with a 6month old child. I love spending time with him, but damn I just want some real friends, with real people,instead of a baby. My ex and I are still the best of friends but I rarely see him, and when I do see him. It's different, everyone kind of looks down on me now because he dumped me for a younger chick which they met,and like because she is an annoying little hot bitch, but as for me, I'm just a single mother who smokes a lot,and has no real life. I hate how one person could totally fuck up your life in just a matter of seconds, I guess I should've learned what my mom always said"Always depend on yourself to make yourself happy, keep yourself entertained because no one will stick around forever" Oh well..

I guess I should stop bein shy,and open up to people.Thanks everyone for trying to help.