My plants are still alive and well!!!


Well my plants are still alive they made it through the miracle grow incident and they are bigger than before.......they are about 8 feet tall each....and the little one is about 5 feet tall. Anyways, i'll have some new pictures up soon enough. I have alot of doctors appointments coming up this week and for months probably. But i will take some pics anyways and you can see how they are doing. I'm not feeling good at all. My muscles are so sore and i feel almost like there is a pain in my bones. I'm not doing too well. I smoked some cannabis for the first time in a long time on Sunday night and it was pretty nice. I didn't get paranoid like i used to. It made the pain more severe though at the beginning but after about 20 minutes the pain was almost gone. The only problem is I dont enjoy the smoke. It really does a number on my throat and lungs. I have problems breathing and a very sore throat thats always filled with mucus and it just makes it worse. But other than that it was really pleasant. Moreso than i ever imagined. The combination of my painkilling medication and the weed helps with the paranoia i used to experience. I find that I don't need much cannabis to get medicinal effects. I could get by on maybe 10 good hauls before bed and I would be good to go. I only need to smoke maybe a quarter of a decent sized joint or half of a little pinner and i'm good. I'm very sensitive to medications and drugs, possibly because of the cancer in my adrenal glands which is basically on your kidneys. I've found that even 10 little balls out of a dexedrine capsule makes me too nervous and edgy. So i stopped asking for them from my doctor. I hope to get a vaporizer when i have enough money. I refuse to smoke it often. Maybe i'll do it once a week. Also, one other thing. It really helped to mellow me out. I have a hormone imbalance in my adrenal glands. My body makes too much Cortisol, this is a stress hormone and so, it makes me VERY edgy, very confrontational, and I cannot control my temper. I always feel like I am on an adrenaline rush and it's unbearable sometimes. I tend to get very upset alot of the time. Before i got sick i was very mellow and relaxed. After i got sick, i always felt like I was on a constant adrenaline rush and trust me it feels horrible. This high cortisol also screws up your seratonin and makes it so you cannot enjoy things. It totally depletes your seratonin. This makes for severe depression. I have some serious problem but I'm hoping I will overcome them. I hope to get a grow light and grow my own medical marijuana and I will get a vaporizer and use cannabis that way and I will also make tinctures for my nausea. Thanks for looking at my thread

Sincerely, Tom (aka, Ontariogrower)