Acidhead, don't kill yourself, a year will go by in no time. Besides, death is FOREVER and a year is just a year. If you try to kill yourself (DON"T) with pills and booze (DON"T) you'll end up really sick and in the mental ward or detox with a bunch of freaks with REAL problems. Trust me, made the same mistake myself. Good luck and take care, I wish you the best.