When this happened to me, back in '84, I searched all over until I'd found all the leftover seeds that there were in the rug, corners of the room, stash box, couch cushions; you get the idea. Then I planted them in some crap soil I got from outside my apartment. The results were pretty pathetic, but I kept trying; reading, getting advice from the few people I knew who grew their own.

By around mid '85 I'd turned the corner; was independent from dealers, money, etc. Had a constant supply from then on.

One alternative for you to try, anyway.

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