Just remember lily, we've yet to see one negative post here about you, and that really says something. you are a wonderfull person, better than a lot of people I've met on the web. everybody developes at different rates, and more importantly don't feel like you should have your whole life figured out and together. I'm 20 right now and after years and years of trying to figure everything out I only recently feel like I'm finally figuring out how I want to live my life. just try to be at peace with yourself and let go of ego. and ego means both feeling high and mighty about yourself, or bad about yourself. you are simply you, and so long as you strive to improve yourself physically and mentally and stay free of ignorance, what you are right now just doesn't matter, so long as it's YOU.