Quote Originally Posted by ImStonedNILikeIt
Well today I was going to give myself a break to clean out for a day or too. I had one of the worst day's that I've had in a long time. I think I lost my mind or something. It seemed as though everything was going wrong. First my phone at the apartment wasn't working right, then The mail box key they gave me wasn't opening up my mailbox,and then too top all that off, My son was being fussy. I'm a single mother, I deal with that all the time but today for some reason it drove me over the edge.I got my mom to take care of him,and I went to sleep. Now through all of this, I didn't toke. I had the urge too, but I didn't do it. Because I had to see just how much I needed the weed to relax me.

Hang on I promise this has a point..

Everything was alright, I'm doing fine. Living in my non-happy stoner world. Watching aqua teen hunger force, wishin i was high.Then my EX calls me up. We're really good friends so we talk every day, he asks how my son is,and we talk about how big of losers we are & how we really need a life.Then he starts talking about his new girl. I'm alright with that. Everything is fine. Everything is dandy. Then he talks about how she is playing this stupid chidish games w/him,and how he is still holding on. Going on and on...so I snap. Get up from my chair, walk out on my porch and smoked a fucking bowl.Oh I am not complaining, At all. I enjoyed every single minute of my high. In fact i'm still high. But I was wondering is there anyone else out there that is just like this?I mean quits for a reason but doesn't stick to it due to things that you should've killed the moment that you begun talking about it, and the moment that you know you shouldn't be feeling this way?

And a lot of my post may seem like I'm bitching a lot. I'm not honestly..There is a reason to every bit of my post.I just wrote a story,and now I should probably go.

But seriously...Anyone else feel like that too?
i can totally relate i would never consider quiting weed but i went through the starting and stoping thing for about a year when i was trying to quit using opiates and i can also relate on the ex thing as well me and my sons mom split up before he was born but are still very close we talk 3-5 times a week on the phone and i go to visit her and my boy [ im in richmond they are in charlotte ] 5- 10 times a yr for a week at a time and we take our vacation togeather so our son can have a normal family vacation with mom and dad and she has had several boy friends that didnt treat her as well as she deserves the last one she had she married and then he wiped out her bank account [ 22'000$] and left her the day after her father died..so yes i have let some problems get the best of me when i was trying to abstain any way i hope you feel better soon and wish you and your little one the best of luck peace jim