Toking with Jesus, congrats on your new discovery,reads to me like you are goona need to relax just a lil more.Let the herb in to your heart & soul to knock out that stupid feeling.Cannabis has been helping people for thousands of years.Please don,t let the last 70 years of "Reefer Madness" affect you.That is great that cannabis help's you in your challenged life.You should not feel guilt or stupid for Taking medicne that helps you feel better.The more you smoke the more learn to love this herb for it is a powerfull aid in so many situations in life.Where are you at? does your state country have medical cannabis avalible?