well thanks for that TTR . it is nice to know somebody actually is in my boat. I've actaully been getting into meditation recently, but it's been so hard to find the time when I'm always working and then exhausted all day from work. though I'll keep working at that. right now I'm stoned and listening to music, it's a very effective escape for me (though i'm running out of weed damnit ) .

meds are so hard to tell with which is the right one. I took paxil which is supposed to have no withdrawl effects. it made me like I was on crack for a week, then it stopped working, then I went off and had terrible withdrawl. I tried another, can't remember the name, about 2 years ago but it didnt' do anything. frankly I just hate having to mask it with a pill every day, know what I mean? I really wish I could actually fix it, or at least improve it.

heh, and yeah I know a lot of Americans believe we live in this Utopia medical society, but it's far from it and failing on many levels.

hope that all came out right, kinda out of it too being stoned. check out www.leaveseyes.com and see the video "elegy", so amazing. getting off track, so I'll just stop and post this now.
mrdevious Reviewed by mrdevious on . God I hate the Canadian medical system (long post, but please read) well, yesterday it happened again, for about the 4th time. I was at work and I got hit with a terrible panick attack (chronic anxiety and all). I work at 7-11 and had to suddenly leave the customer and go to the backroom to get my shit together. suddenly I couldn't breath and was hyperventilating like a fish out of water. I collapsed on the floor and was there for a good half hour, all I could do was kick the door hoping somebody would hear, trying to get somebody to call an ambulance or get me Rating: 5