I'm sorry to hear that you are dealing with anxiety attacks. I suffer from them myself, and they can really be debilitating at times. Have you ever tried relaxation breathing or meditation? I know that's not much help when your in full-fledged panic mode at work, but kind of like a preventative, say in the mornings when you wake up and before bedtime.

What medications have you tried? Xanax is ok sometimes when I feel REALLY bad, but it makes me so tired that I try to do without it. I know a person whose had good experience with klonapin (sp?) although I've never tried it myself. And you are NOT weak for seeking help, you're smart. You want to get better.

I'm sorry that the medical system there is failing you. Seems like no matter what country we're in there are always problems. I live in the U.S. and am uninsured, so it sounds like we're in a similar boat. I was denied help b/c I held a job and hadn't been in and out of state run metal health facilities. Feel free to email me, I'm pretty sure I still have some good online info saved somewhere on my computer. Take care. [email protected]