I feel you. I mena,a fter I retire, I am sure I would like to start smoking again, but I'm not sure if I'll will have the motivation or desire due to alck of memory of what it was like. I just dont really get attached to shit long term. Its like my mom says, she never wnats to buy me shit because she knows ill use it for 15 minutes then get bored wiht it no matter how awesome it is or had bad i want it. however, at this point in my life, i loves me some cannibus.