Yeah, that was what E=MC2 was really all about... it was a formula for growing some bomb ass weed. lol

Thanks for the really cool replies, guys... I appreciate it...

FunkyMonkey, I can imagine how the scenes in that video are stuck in your head. I haven't even seen it and it's stuck it my mind too. Today I was talking to the drummer of my band and I mentioned the video of the Russian dude, and he just said "Dude, don't ever watch that..." (in a way that implied he had seen it and regreted it) and that was all he would say.

I've been trying to pinpoint exactly why I personally am so affected by even the thought of these videos, but I think I know what it is;

I'm generally a positive person. I find it hard to get depressed or angry (though it does happen...) and I find it even harder to be horrible or nasty to people. I like being nice to people, and I realise that in some way I like to imagine that everybody else is the same. If I didn't think that then maybe i'd find it alot harder to be polite, you know? So, here's me, happy little GHoSToKeR, wondering around in my own little world, where everyone is nice and nobody wishes harm on anybody. When somebody does act shitty to somebody my mind subconsciously dreams up some excuse for their actions, and then I can shrug it off and still believe that deep down everyone still likes to be nice.

Continuing from this, I guess I like to imagine that everybody around me would be as disgusted and upset by these kind of graphic, brutal videos and images as I am - I can't understand why anybody would watch them, so I fool myself in to thinking that they don't. But then to find that sites like Ogrish.com exist and are actually popular, and then to find that even people in my own personal circle of friends have watched these kind of stuff, well, it kinda shocked me a bit. I guess it brought me back down to earth, you know? Realising that people around me have seen these kinda forced me in to seeing that not everybody gives a shit about life as much as I do (agan, i'm not trying to be conceited, just trying to be honest).

I don't know if this made sense, i'm slightly very stoned... I just honestly want to know why I haven't felt the same since all this was brought to my attention.