FunkyMonkey, I really appreciate your honest reply.

I see where you're coming from, and your reply has partially helped me to see why i'm so effected by just the thought of these things, without even seeing the video. I'll try and explain.

As you probably know, a series of bombs exploded in London recently, and a number of people died and even more were injured. I first heard about it at work the next day. The radio was on and I heard "And now for a news update; a series of explosions in London........" and I was speechless. I asked the guys I work with if they knew anything about it and the reply I got was "Yeah, I heard.. sucks eh?", and then he went back to talking to someone else about what a good night he had last night. I looked around and noticed that everybody I worked with was completely ignoring the news or at least didn't show many signs or actual compassion or interest. It was the same next door, in a different department. People had died or were dying right this second and nobody seemed to give a shit. All day I felt sick and couldn't take my mind away from what had happened, but I seemed to be the only person at work who cared. Even one of my colleagues who was born in London only cared until he managed to contact his family in London, and then he didn't give a shit either.

So maybe (and i'm not trying to be concieted or anything) I just value life more than the average person.. Alot of people hear stuff and it goes in one ear and out the other, and all they want to hear about is the sports they watch or the latest reality tv show (you were right when you said this desensitizes us more than anything). They don't value human life, not really, so watching a video of a guy having his head pinned down and cut off doesn't effect them as much as it would effect me. I don't need to see it to know it's happening all over the world.... that might sound selfish in some way, but it's not. I know the world is a shitty place alot of the time, but forcing myself to watch something that would bring me to tears and make me physically sick won't help anyone or anything. All the negativity and brutality I see effects me enough as it is.