I wouldnt tell her about the drugs. Lol. Thats not happening. If you say that no doctor will respect you at all. I'd rather just pretend i am unlucky and got some disease. lol. I want to see what she says and see if she can figure out wahts wrong on her own. Don't ever tell your doctor your a former drug user or depressive or anything or they will not treat you right. In my experience they look down on you and they don't care good care of you. I'll see what she says. If she coems up with some disease, then thats fine with me i'd rather just go along with that than say ohhh i fried my own brain. I'ts much easier to cope when someone tells you that you have a legitimate illness. I know my brain is fried to a certain degree but i could also have health issues that aren't related to that. I know i'm kinda ignoring part of the problem but i need a doctor to tell me i have something because the fact is i can't work, i can't go to school, i can barely go out, maybe once a month i'll go out to the store. I have a desire to go out and do things. I just find it incapacitating. I feel so ill all the time. I need a diagnosis so i can apply for disability and so i can get help from the government when i need it. I know it sounds scumbaggish but i honestly cannot do anything and i'm not going to go suffer and be homeless because for 8 motnhs of my life i did drugs. What would you do?