Quote Originally Posted by Sentinel
I remember seeing several other trip reports on erowid giving this guys exact same story about abusing a substance for a prolonged period of time then overdosing and being fucked up for the rest of your life. Used same words and sentenceing too... I have no doubt doing this type of thing will definetely fuck you up permanently...not accusing just maybe something to look carefully at.

Yah i haven't been on erowid in a long time. I never heard of anyone getting fucked up permanently from ecstacy. not as bad as i am at least. I've heard of people having depression from prolonged ecstacy use but never anything really horrible like what i've experienced. HAha i don't get what you're saying, do you mean i'm stealing someones story or something? lol......i can assure you i'm not and this really happened to me. I wouldnt make anything like this up. I just wrote my story because i don't want people to have the same thing happen to them. When you're 18 years old or younger you dont realize what your doing to yourself. Now i am about as straight edge as i can be. Except for my opiates. But they make me feel better and without them i would have blown my head off. I have lupus and ITP as well so i kinda need them. I bet ecstacy caused the lupus and ITP......i got sick like directly after the last time i did it and ended up in the hospital and got diagnosed with lupus. So i'm in bad shape and i blame it totally on my stupidity and ecstacy. A mind is horrible thing to waste. Use in moderation. Don't go and take 15 pills or 10 pills or even 5 pills in a night. It could really mess you up. Doing E like once a while...maybe every 4-5 months may be okay. But remember this shit is synthesized most likely by some biker gang or asian gang and these people could screw up the chemistry and sell a very toxic product. There have been cases of people sythesizing demerol (meperidine) which is a painkiller and totally unrelated to ecstacy but the people have often messed up on the sythesis of the drug and made something called MPTP or something and taking this gives people something that is basically parkinsons disease. And this is all from like one time of doing it even. So if some fucker is making ecstacy in a trailor and he messes up and makes a really tainted and toxic product, your brain could be fried after one pilll. It's not likely to happen but you dont know what in that stuff. I'm sure the E i've done contained meth, speed, caffeine, ephedrine, methcathinone and all sorts of goodies.

Be careful!!! You don't want to wake up in my shoes someday. Trust me. I would give my arms and legs to make this illness go away. I'm totally serious. I would really let the doctor hack off my arms and legs if i could feel normal again. I don't even remember what normal feels like but i know it was not like this. Take care everyone. Use wisely.