You know I am starting to feel the same way..
My connection bugged out on me last month and since then I havent got high....
I wont drink or do any other drugs and trying to score the shit is just getting riskier and harder....its just motivating me more and more to say fuck this...I never really had a social or family problem with it , it is just getting too hard to get a little bag of pot..
Growing your own sounds good but I guess I've seen to many episodes of "COPS"
Some guys takes a crap on his neighbors doorstep nexthing u know cops find his plants