I know alot of people feel strongly about anti-depressants and whatnaught, but I do as well. I feel strongly that Depakote has helped improve the quality of my life dramatically. I didn't initially think it would, but I'm alot more in control then I used to be. It might just have been me maturing or something, but it coincidentally went right along side me starting up and regularly taking depakote, which makes me not exactly want to get off of it anytime soon.

I'll talk to my shrink about getting a drug that involves less tendency for sexual side effects or something just to see what he says. I'm definately sexually attracted to my girl, though. ((Go for a year with no one to be sexual with, and your sexual wants lessen by alot. -laughs- My current girl is an 8 -outta 10- but she's a goddess, and my lack of a girl for a year before her makes her seem like a 23 -again, out of 10-.))

I'll be trying some fun stuff to help me get into it more, but prolly not til I've got her liking me enough that it won't scare her away when I tell her to make her thighs like butter and easy to spread, because I want to make sandwiches. She can be the bun, oh I can be the burger, girl.

Don't worry jacque, I've no intentions of doing heroin so I can cum faster. -laughs- If I thought I could enjoy heroin without the addictive mental side effects, I probably would. But, I doubt I could pull that off. I was thinking about me dressing like a woman and it made me laugh. But I get the jist of what you're saying and that's probably what it'll come down to me doing. ((not dressing like a woman, but incorporating my weird little turn-ons/fetishes))

I already jerk myself a bit and cover it up as foreplay, and it definately helps. I get kind of embarassed doing it though, but I thought about it and there's really no reason I should. Especially if it just looks like foreplay, rather then us foreplaying and me beating off in the background as I originally feared. I'll be doing it more now since it is a pretty good solution and my embarassment is unjustified, I think. She can tell me if she doesn't like it, but there isn't really a reason why she'd mind.

Thanks cannabis message board. You've been a help indeed.