All right guys, confessions of Lily and her feelings. get a load of this alright? Well all my life i've gone through problems: Molestation, rape, drugs, depression, court...ever since I was 2 years old these things started happening little by little. Now i've come to a point where even though I might have gotten over my problems from the past my problems in the future i start to question....
Im not a very smart girl and im not very good at anything. Im very quiet and i dont say much because everything comes out wrong when I speak. I dont kno weither its a language problem...my school seems to think so. And being not so bright makes me feel really bad. I mean I keep trying to do everything better and then i bomb. I feel pathetic. And i also im confused as of weither i love or hate myself...I love evryone! I have a very good heart i do not wish pain onto others. I want to do my best! But when im always reminded by my actions that im pathetic it brings me down. It angers me.
Now im afraid the only really good thing here in atlanta is slipping away from me...Luc hasent been very touchy for 3 weeks now...ever since i met his mother. Hes been very tired, sad, and all he wants to do is play video games. Last time I was over his place I had to make the first move (which never happends) and we were only at it for 10 mins till he decided to play video games...grrrr its not normal...and im scared hes doing this to get farther away from me...and im think its because im not so smart. He always calls me spazz and then tells me i need anger managment...Im scared he thinks its because the weed but i've always been this way...I dunno wat to think...i dont want to think anymore!!!! Thinking drives me mad!!!! Goes on for fucking forever!!!!!!! I cant even enjoy sleep because all my dreams have to do with me breaking up with luc for sum1 else, and it breaks my heart to see his face in every one!!!! I have a lot of pain in my heart...sorry i needed to vent i guess...thanks guys for listening to my little problems and sorry if i wasted your time.
Lily420 Reviewed by Lily420 on . Feeling put out and helpless All right guys, confessions of Lily and her feelings. get a load of this alright? Well all my life i've gone through problems: Molestation, rape, drugs, depression, court...ever since I was 2 years old these things started happening little by little. Now i've come to a point where even though I might have gotten over my problems from the past my problems in the future i start to question.... Im not a very smart girl and im not very good at anything. Im very quiet and i dont say much because Rating: 5