Its just I feel I want to prove to myself and the whole side of my FATHERS family that I'm not a chip off the old block and don't crave respect from making people uneasy and trying to impress his mates more than he cares for the family!

I've never lived with him and have always lived with mother and as I've grown wiser i realise how irresponsible and idiotic (if im fair) he is. I left home leaving my mother with her partner who is a loving, well respeted man who is family orientated! IM GLAD SHE FOUND SOMEONE, and I just long for a loving close family where I am actually LOVED AND NEEDED/DEPENDED ON BY OTHERS!

"Any prick with a Dick can make a Baby, but it takes a real man to raise his children"