i dont really beleave in fate,there are toi many "ifs" if i hadn't started smokeing i would have tuned out to be the kind of person i hate,in the end it is each seperate person that sets their own path as they live and mature and refine their thoughs.i find useualy only go into "the haze" when i dont sleep much and my mind and body are tierd,i seems like that should make my thoughts dull and simple,but for some reason mine get sharper and much deeper...man...i need to fucking sleep i've only slept about 18 of the last 120 hours....