Quote Originally Posted by Porkchop
Yes, I feel like if we move in together I will be able to trust her again. In the beginning I screwed her to get a nut, but after a month and I decided I really cared about her so I started fucking her better and going down on her better, she says that I am the best lover she has ever had even better than those other guys she fucked, which I really believe, cause I made it better. But it just makes me sick to picture her with some other guy while she was telling me she wasn't for 4 fucking yrs..If u read my first thread I explained that I always told her about the other girls when she asked me, but she didn't even do that!! What do u mean that im getting close to beating her up for things we both did in the past? Elaborate pls..
Ha, thanks Lulu...my third wife's a charm...

Beating her up emotionally, not physically. You found something out and now you are torturing yourself with images and also beating her up with words. You are now at a crossroad in your relationship. It wouldn't hurt to do some relationship counseling. Most therapists work on a sliding scale, so it could be as little as $25 a week.
But you can also just decide to start over with her. Let go of the past and pick some upcoming day as the new beginning of your relationship.
'Dude, if you screw up with this girl, then what is your next GF doing right at this moment? You can learn to let things go and move on, or face a lifetime of bad thoughts.