I'm not sure if I should continue using mj. the thing is when i smoke it i feel paranoid, anxious, and i get little muscle jerks through my lowed body, toes, and fingers. however i also get awesome auditory and visual hallucinations. although the trip is alright... not fantastic...sorta plastic....fake...i do it to escape reality. even 12 hours later my mouth is still slightly dry and my toes are still jerking. since my first hit ever i noticed that i still get little muscle spasms when im in bed that i can sorta control. the last time i smoked it resulted in a very slow subsiding of confusion and paranoia. i mean this was at least 18 fucking hours later! the trees still seemed ot breathe, and when i was driving i was still confused. then 48 hours later im still not sure about the trees and am feeling euphorically indifferent (not just plain iapthetic). i probably have something of a depression (i mean for the past 4 years or so) or just general indifference and apathy to life. so perhaps i am one of those who is susceptible to psychosis w/ mj? my whole immediate family has some sort of mental illness and both my grandmas too (and it's not senility for sure). anyways, when i am high i feel like some fucking schizo. i mean i checked it out on the web today because it felt jsut like it and the reasearch i came along pointed towards a link w/ schizophernia & mj. before i started smoking mj i felt already paranoid.... like i would shudder or shake when someone would call my name an dthen the person would say sorry that they didn't mean to scare me and plus when i was like 8-11 years old i used to think i heard a group of older men in the room next door and someone calling my name. i never minded the auditory hallucinations cause they made me feel less alone. so i don't know if i should continue. im afraid if i do it again it's goin gto take a long time to snap outa it and i don't even know if i will get over the high.... i mean on the one hand i can't imagine my life being anything worse than it is cause it's not gettin gbetter. and don't think im self-pitting myself im not just being honest. and don' t give me those self righteous comments cause u might as well talk to a wall. im just being logical and totally honest here. sorry for the length and horribly written comment but please let me kno wehat u guys think. thanks. by the way my email is

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TanCep123 Reviewed by TanCep123 on . 12hr high I'm not sure if I should continue using mj. the thing is when i smoke it i feel paranoid, anxious, and i get little muscle jerks through my lowed body, toes, and fingers. however i also get awesome auditory and visual hallucinations. although the trip is alright... not fantastic...sorta plastic....fake...i do it to escape reality. even 12 hours later my mouth is still slightly dry and my toes are still jerking. since my first hit ever i noticed that i still get little muscle spasms when Rating: 5