yeah cat...there is a shit load of stuff that im trying to "get over" its not so much the fact that i did take many peoples lives, its all the "what ifs". never in my life did i ever think id tell some private to light up a woman....never...but if i didnt that POS would of killed us all...also referr to my post on the "soldier cleared" thread...some nasty stuff happens in war and the only point that im trying to get across here is that there is no reason to talk down on our troops. we only did what we were told, and what we had to do to make it home alive.