ya man i feel your pain completely. A few months ago i was in the same situation, in the same exact order. I swear to god i was ready to cry i was so embarassed. Well the girl I was with said no big dealll blah blah blah, I still felt like shit and said I needed to smoke a J. We each smoked a fatty and we got back to my apartment and one thing led to another and we tried it again. This time mission successful! I was obviously really nervous and weed made me more comfortable. Maybe you should try it high?