She doesnâ??t want you but she doenâ??t want anyone else to have you either. She clearly would never be a good girl friend for you because she doesnâ??t care about your feelings if she did she would want you to be happy. You have been this huge boost to her ego for a long time. You make her feel desired she doesnâ??t give a crap about your heart. You should be pissed at her she is manipulating you. Tell her to fuck off and that youâ??re not going to be her boy toy anymore.