HEY I FEEL YOUR PAIN GUYS! THIS IS NOW MY 2ND DAY OF NOT SMOKING. AND I AM GONNA GO FUCKING NUTS! ALL I WANT TO DO IS SMOKE A BOWL OF SOME GOOD AS SHIT! I FOUND OUT LAST FRIDAY THAT I AM ON COURT SUPERVISION FOR A YEAR AND HAVE TO TAKE RANDOM PISS TESTS EVERY WEEK.

THERE AIN'T NO WAY TO GET AROUND THAT SHIT!! I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW LONG I CAN GO W/OUT SMOKING. I WAS THINGKING ABOUT GETTING THE LEGAL WEED. MAYBE I CAN MAKE MYSELF THINK IT IS REAL WEED! LOL, YEAH RIGHT!!

BUT, FOR NOW WHEN EVER I WANT TO SMOKE SOME WEED, I REACH FOR A FUCKING CIG. I DON'T LIKE TO DRINK EITHER SO I AM REALLY FUCKING SCREWED. THE ONLY THING I HAVE TO CALM MY NERVES IS MY BOYFRIENDS XANAX.

WHICH PROBALLY WILL SHOW UP IN MY DRUG TEST. THEN I REALLY WILL BE SCREWED. THEY WILL SAY YOUR DROPPED SHOWED UP POSITIVE FOR A LEGAL CONTROLLED SUBSTANCE. THEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WILL DO.

WHY OH WHY DO THEY HAVE TO HAVE MARIJUANA ILLEGAL?

WELL WHO EVER MADE IT ILLEGAL IS A FUCKING BASTARD!!!!!!!

AND PLEASE EXCUSE MY LANGUAGE, BUT I AM VERY TESTIE RIGHT NOW AND CAN AND PROBALLY WILL SNAP AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT.

HOPE NO ONE HAS TO GO THROUGH WHAT I HAVE TOO!