this is so true its pathetic.who want to fall in love with a dying man and lose at end except for my house and hidden away journels on my life and grows and stuff.i dont think i will ever find my one love.i know that i have a huge more than normal crappy life that is doomed but we all are doomed.anyway.i really dont want to burden the ladys with my worries cuz sooner or later they leave after finding out how sick i really am.so i live and let live acting happy but always sad,going places always mad but acting happy and always sad inside .fuck man i cry theses days knowing my fate .im happy these days wishing i knew not my fate for it is time for heaveans gate