No pure I don't have a mental disorder but have been depressed before. To the point that I have spent time in the hospital for it. I'm talking about weeks here, not day. In fact it was almost two months. They said I had, "co-dependency" problem. No I didn't, I had a fucking cheating husband and I was 10 hours away from the nearest family memeber at the time, I was pregnate and only 19 years old. Go figure I hadn't chosen to leave him inspite of what he was doing to me. Anyway, it took me years to learn that it wasn't all me. Yes, I was depressed. I was also sexually abused by 4 people during my childhood. So I had a fear of being left alone and abused b/c I had been most of my life. I also had to just deal with it as a child so as a young adult I didn't know how to do anything else but just deal with what was going on around me. With the help of a good therapist, a few years later when I was about 25 I was finally able to deal with my past, and get rid of my ex-husband. Codependent NO MORE! I also learned that his cheating had nothing to do with me, and it wasn't my fault he had a need to do such things to me. It was a ruff start in my early twenties but now, I'm good. I don't take shit from anyone, and least of all my current husband. I have a good man in my life now, but only b/c I insisted upon it. He wasn't just the next guy I dated after I left my ex-husband. I dated so many guys that I learned what it was I wanted and needed in life to be happy. I settled for nothing less then what I deserved so I you as you can see I'm depressed no more. But not b/c of the new man in my life. It just that I had to learn to deal with my past. I had to learn to accept what had happned to me and how to deal with it as it comes up in my life now. I also had to learn that I was worth loving and deserved that. It was long hard stuggle, but in the end, all my hard work has paid off, and now, I feel free to my life without the lies and without hiding what happened to me. I am what I make of myself and I can't let those who hurt me, bring me down one more day, for if I do, they win, and I lose. Not an option for me.


I know that this really doesn't help you much. I guess in sharing this information I want you know that no is perfect we all come with flaws. We must remember that we are what we are and as long as your seeing a doctor and getting help with your problem, there is nothing more you can do. Be sure and seek out the medical help you need, as that is your only defence to the problem you have. I wish you luck and know that I'm here if you anything. Who knows maybe the one episode you had is all you will ever have, and things will be smooth sailing from here on out. Wish you luck, and please, please, go see a doctor if you haven't already.