God is for real. Keep your faith, and you will reach heaven. If the lord giveth, cannot the lord taketh? You all know the story of Job, don't let the same thing happen to you. God will always be there for you if you only accept him, and then you may trancend this world of pain and suffering into the world of dietys.
I'm an atheist too, but don't lose your faith because something bad has happened in your life. Find a real good reason to be atheist, or let the lord into your life and he will heal you.

P.S. If religion isn't for you, it doesn't necesarrily make it sucky. Some weaker minded people need to feel that there is a point to life, or else they just won't live it. you could say, just ufck those ignoramuses, but how would you like everybody else thinking the same thing as you? Creativity flows through all and it comes out in different mediums. Don't hate, fisticate.