hey. i suppose i have mild depression. i guess so because i don't really feel anything. wel, anyways, after smoking weed the 2nd time i was super high and the next day i still felt strange. the trees had a life of their own. the 3rd day i still wasn't sure if the trees are breathing. anyways, the point is i haven't sung in 4 years...and have never played the piano as well as i did after smoking weed. i felt less inhibited and anxious. however i developed an anxiety of surroundings. no so much of what i'm DOING but of objects. it's extremely wierd but subsiding.
perhaps i have a tendency to psychosis w/ marijuana considering that every member of my immediate family is metnally disturbed in some way and even my grandmas too. what i'm saying is that maybe i should stop using it because of that but also because i don't really enjoy the feeling of being high. i am intensly paranoid. however i do enjoy immensly being in a differnt reality.