yea man i hear ya on this shit. i think i am addicted to weed but to me it is just like cigs except instead of just getting a buzz off cigs for the first couple of times u get high everytime. i can't sleep very good unless i am high but if i am out, i just go and get some herbal tea , the sleepytime kind, and that shit knocks me out. no ur not weird, a lot of people r like u and me but they just don't admit it.