yea i was the same way except i thought every drug/mind expanding chemical outthere would kill you the very first time you tried it cuz of those damned anti drug commercials and a sXe grandmother.....but ofr my 13th birthday i asked a friendto get me high....it was with a 23 year old stripper lol...at first i pussied out and said i didn't want to but after i went back and checked in i took a massive hit and got a hell of a head rush...best high of my life...i've spent nearly 7 years (20th birthday july 13th) trying to achieve that very first high....never is quite the same.