Ill never forget the feeling ive felt for the last couple days. No sleep, no food, just tears and regret. I literally considered shooting myself in the meat of my calf to have a REAL excuse for not showing up. Thats how much my freedom meant to me. I hope this helped someone out in someway... I know its way more then confusing reading all these threads on diff websites trying to believe 9,000,000,000 different opinions. The only solid FORSURE opinion and option for probation is the one you dont want to hear.. TO STAY CLEAN. Alright, im fuckin DONE with these forums. Until i get off probation and start growing weed lol, then ill be back on here after i get arrested for manufacturing, only to read my own thread to convince me to stay sober.. Lol fuck i cant wait for a bong rip...